assalamualaikum w.b.t.
And here I am. I thought everything would change when the world reach 2020. Yeah it really did but not any better.
We never know that one simple thing, like virus, a little tiny things, would change entire humankind. Darurat, perintah berkurung, millions death from time to time and people keep wearing mask everywhere. It's so terrifying. All the sempadan was blocked and people was probihited to go abroad. And the cause of everything happens - we call it covid-19.
I believe, dalam sejarah Akan terlakar this event.
Apart of everything, it really had changed my life. Almost entirely. Now,I am a nurse of Hospital Sultanah Nur Zahirah, and it's been 2 months since I left work at putramedic Jalan beserah Kuantan. To be honest, I'm not ultimately ready for this. This job and this responsibility. It almost feels like a huge load on my back that keep me falling on my knees but still, I have to get on my feet and moving. Physically and entirely exhausted.
But. That just that. Kalau tak kerja sape nak suapkan kau makan??
I've already bought a planner for this year tapi lepas je panggilan mengejut kkm macam ni, semua perancangan utk tahun ni terpaksa dirombak semula nampak gayanya. Orang cakap hikmah covid, jadi rezeki kami untuk bekerja dipanggil awal.
Alhamdulillah.
At first, kyu mengaku yang kyu excited sangat nak masuk kerja. For 3 years before I learned, study in diploma of nursing, of course la ini yang ditunggu tunggu. But after 2 months of working here. I'm started to feel everything is not right, and I'm searching for primary reason why I'm dropping my degree and choose this field instead.
For introvert like me, it is challenging to work as a team, to get involve in everything and attached to everyone. All the team, dr, specialists, sister, colleagues, attendants, patients and even relatives. Tu belum masuk lain lain department lagi tu. Haih.
Tapi deeply inside, kyu tahu, semua yang berlaku ni for a reason. Learning will take time. And by times, you going to make this alright. Stay strong, okay.
Second chapter. Personal life, personal love. Almost a year kyu with My Deer, and we expecting the next step perhaps by next year. Inshaa Allah. Not much comments on this, just hoping things will keep on flow. Lumrah bercinta Ada pasang surut and we not terkecuali. harapan setiap pergaduhan tu buatkan kami lebih matang in future.
Being in same workplace with your lover not making anything as easy as ABC. Plus, different department, different work time and tambahan perintah berkurung make it worst. 2 bulan kyu kat sini, baru sekali kyu jumpa dia. Tu pun beberapa saat je. Buttttt, I did promise myself to not to make any comment for this. I is really understanding, am I?
Kalau ikut hati macam banyak je lagi kyu nak tulis but I think I should probably end it here. For this time. Gian lama hiatus haha.
Till next time. Love.
